last night emily and I did an episode of swanage cove about romantic love, and it was interesting becasue i was talking a lot about forgiveness for the people who had hurt me, and even just saying that I forgave them - even if i don’t actually - made me feel a lot better and less hostile/hung up on the situation. I didnt realize that that kind of sentence has a lot of power for affirmation type beat, i thought affirmations just had to be like “i am kind i am okay” lmao. so that was nice. becasue I feel like a lot more positive today/less thinky about people that shouldn’t take up space in my head. a lot of the time when ive been broken up with the person often says like “i hope you can still be fond of the time we spent together” and i always had a lot of issues with that statement. but I think maybe yesterday was a small step towards being happy something happened, not upset that it didnt last forever. Its kind of wholesome that ive crossed paths with a lot of individuals, and that we gave each other some form of love, even if it was only for 2 weeks or 2 months. Its always harder in practice to feel okay about that sort of thing, but maybe im getting closer. you really can speak anything and everything into existence.
today and tomorrow is supposed to be hot as balls and im like getting sunburnt as im typing this but it makes me very happpy so i cannot complain. im so excited to see all the hard work my friends have put into the fashion show tonite. i am so proud and blessed to be apart of such a cool creative community. #refine forever. we can have our flowers and enjoy them too... see below for a virtual garden.